questions that need to be answered

What am I doing? Where is this thing going? And well… why bother. All questions that need to asked and possible answered.

I think I have had totally unrealistic expectations of my ability and time management (and motivation) to maintain an animal such as this, this animal named edgar. Others do it wonderfully, such as tamyka (you champion) and I love checking out doug pagitt’s blog (solomon’s porch) and tony jones also has some cool things to say. But… enough about others, where is edgar going?

A couple of things have inspired me of late. Some negatives, some positives. In short I think edgar will be what it will be, but there are some defining things in my life that will shape edgar.

1 – my attempts to fill people in on the details of my life are not only being met by failure, but are pointless, as I don’t think anyone really cares about my somewhat uninteresting life enough to read it. And well, its not that my life is boring, its that when its not boring I have no time to write, and when I have time to write its normally due to procrastination.

2 - on to the positives.. ive been checking out this online spiritual retreat, and its really got me thinking about things and stuff.. so, I think this may well be a good place to jot down some reflections on those bits and pieces.

3 – I feel like I have some good material at the moment for writing songs, and well, I may put some up here. May not too.

4 – reading (and rereading) some thought provoking stuff of late, so I thought this might be a good spot to put it, or more importantly my reflections on it. And possibly your reflections on those reflections.

5 - another note on spiritual stuff, is that I think God can be seen in all sorts of things. So, what ever it may be, I imagine it’s a spiritual reflection on some level… ??? possibly

I have a feeling i may get myself into trouble here, but thats ok, i think maybe i need to...